I google search her name. I find her secret blog! I do not wish to read it. I do not want to read it. I will never ever read it. I open her blog and read every single word she has written about him. It is painful beyond words. Monday mornings post is called: He is my everything. I vow never to read her blog again.Wednesday mornings post is called: Babies. I try locking myself in the bathroom all day.Thursday mornings post is called: Orgasms. I phone my service provider and beg them to close my Internet account immediately. Friday mornings post is called: Big Boy. I give my computer to a homeless person called Steven and cry and cry and cry.